Am I The Trauma? - A Nervous System Diary (formerly The Poet's Garden - Der Selbstliebe Podcast)
JosiAm I The Trauma? — A Nervous System Diary is me thinking out loud about my patterns, my body, and the moments I realise I’m not “too much” — just triggered. FERAL 💗 (MadB) —Voice notes from real life: messy days, quiet breakdowns, and memos to the besties. FEMINIST🌿 —Conversations about value, attachment, and the slow work of feeling enough. FUCKABLE 🫦 —Episodes about desire, power, and intimac... more
| Publishes | Twice weekly | Episodes | 48 | Founded | 3 years ago |
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| Number of Listeners | Categories | Health & FitnessMental Health | |||
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In dieser Episode wird’s nicht “spirituell”, es wird real.
Helena erzählt, wie es ist, in einer Sekte aufzuwachsen: Wenn Kontrolle als Liebe verkauft wird, wenn Angst “Erziehung” heisst, und wenn dein eigenes Gefühl nie der Massstab sein darf. Wir s... more
At some point, I had to admit it:
What I called boundaries were just trauma responses with prettier language.
Walls dressed up as “standards.”
Disconnection disguised as self-worth.
Because I didn’t feel safe.
I just felt defended.
This week’s Patr... more
2025 war krass.
So viel Aufregung, so viele Veränderungen.
Aber was seit dem Ende des Jahres mit mir passiert ist, fühlt sich nach etwas völlig Neuem an.
Ich fühle mich richtig.
Ich bin so sehr bei mir selbst angekommen.www.ginkgominds.com
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He says she was the one.
The one that got away.
The only one who really knew him.
But the truth?
She was just the last time he let himself feel.
Before the shutdown.
Before the guard went up.
Before he decided that love was too dangerous to risk aga... more
She moans.
She arches her back.
She says, “Yes, that’s good”—even when it isn’t.
Not because she doesn’t know what she wants.
But because shame taught her to be silent.
Taught her to protect his ego over her body.
Taught her to be sexy, but not inc... more
He says she was the one.
The one that got away.
The only one who really knew him.
But the truth?
She was just the last time he let himself feel.
Before the shutdown.
Before the guard went up.
Before he decided that love was too dangerous to risk aga... more
If you were taught young that your body was for other people—be quiet, be useful, be pleasant—you didn’t “fail.” You adapted. This voice note goes into what that does to a nervous system (freeze, fawn, dissociation, scanning the room) and how it keep... more
Special Episode: Stories to Fall Asleep — Intimacy is a monthly special inside Am I The Trauma? where I explore relationship dynamics through quiet storytelling.
This episode is about co-regulation. A woman senses the panic before it has words and s... more
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