Divorced and Disillusioned

This episode explores the loneliness of being unseen in a marriage, the desperate ways I tried to feel wanted, and the consequences of operating from emotional hunger. It’s about accountability without self-destruction and what it means to grow witho... more

You don’t need a villain to justify your boundaries.

You just need clarity.

I share how faith slowly shifted from being a source of comfort to becoming an inner critic, and how losing certainty didn’t just mean questioning God, it meant grieving the identity I had built around shame, fear, and trying to be good enough.

This episode explores the season when prayer stopped bringing comfort to me not because I stopped trying, but because I was praying harder than ever and felt nothing change. I talk about moving from gratitude to desperation, the emotional fog of that... more

I explore how religious messaging and past experiences shaped my nervous system in ways I didn’t understand at the time. When you’ve been taught that relationships are fragile, conditional, or spiritually “doomed,” fear can start to feel like wisdom ... more

In this episode, I talk about what I thought love was when I was young, deeply religious, and trying to be a “good” partner and how that shaped the red flags I didn’t recognize at the time.

In this episode, I talk more about something I mentioned last time ; getting married as a teenager. I share what I was thinking back then, what I didn’t understand yet, and how that experience shaped who I am now. It’s a mix of hindsight, hard truths... more

In the first episode of Divorced & Disillusioned, I share the story of getting married young inside the church, the abuse I didn’t yet have language for, and how my second divorce led to a deeper unraveling of my faith. This isn’t about rebellion — i... more